Somewhere Between 47 and 50

Normally, today would have been my weigh in day. But to make a long story short, I had to reschedule and my weigh in appointment is next Wednesday. Which will be 3 weeks since my last weigh in. So I will update my blog with an official weight loss total next Wednesday. I hesitate to say how much I have lost because I want it to be official according to the scales at Dr. Hendricks. However, I do know I am somewhere between losing a total of 47 and 50 pounds total. It really depends what time of day I weigh myself. Of course I weighed myself this morning and I hit the 50 POUND MARK. Very exciting, but I just weighed myself tonight and I have only lost 47 pounds. I am not discouraged in any way at all, I am just happy that I am still losing. I can't wait until next Wednesday when I have my official weigh in and can share that with everyone.

These past few days have been so stressful for me with work. A lot has been going on and when I am stressed, I want to turn to food. Last night the desire was so strong, but I remained in control and didn't give in. I have to thank my niece Kate. She is so concerned that I don't eat chocolate. She wants me to stay on my diet. It is amazing how intense she is and I always say "Kate can I have some chocolate". And she gets so serious and will say "NO AUNTIE! YOU ARE ON A DIET. YOU HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL THE SUMMER TO HAVE CHOCOLATE". She is so funny and it really does help me for her to keep me in line. The reason why she is focused on the summer is because when I started this diet there was a short period of time where she was totally traumatized that I couldn't have chocolate. In her little "3 year old" world that is devastating. Not being able to have chocolate. I used to tell her that once I lose weight I would be able to have a little bit of chocolate once in while. So everyday she would come up to me and say "Auntie, how much weight have you lost?" I would tell her and then she would say "Can you have some chocolate now?" I would say "No, not yet". After a few weeks of this happening daily, I finally said "Kate, I can't have any chocolate until the summer time". So now she associates summer time with Auntie being able to have chocolate. I have even explained to her that I will probably only have a very tiny bite of chocolate at that time because I don't want to get fat again. She is o.k. with that. It is just funny to me that it has become such a big deal. And quite frankly, I am not a huge chocolate fan. I don't like plain chocolate. For example, I like it if it is combined with something like nuts, coconut, or Carmel. Anyway, the past few days I have been craving chocolate because I know there is candy in the cupboard and I want it for emotional reasons. So anyway, I didn't mean to make this entire post about chocolate, but that is what it turned out to be...